Thankful for medicine

This morning I took my last Motilium tablet. 

I haven't stopped breastfeeding Alexander but he is now down to just a morning feed and a night feed if he wakes, my milk supply has already dropped a lot but I also don't feel I need to keep taking it because he doesn't 'need' to have breastmilk. Don't get me wrong. I know it is still good for him, but he doesn't need it like he did when he was little. I am also starting to prepare for the time when he decides he doesn't want milk from me anymore and kinda prepare my mind for that. I don't know when that will happen. I don't know if he will decided that it is the end of breastfeeding or if I will need to decide it for him, but either way, I have decided that I won't get a new script for Motilium.

I am so grateful for these little tablets. They let me continue exclusively breastfeed both of my boys (Eliza was a good drinker so didn't need any assitance. The boys on the other hand lost weight at the start instead of putting it on). I used it for my whole feeding journey with Daniel. And I have used it for 21 months of Alexander's feeding journey. They said that I could stop after 3 weeks of using it, however, I was too scared that my supply would drop again, I continued to take 1 tablet a day (which they also suggest if your supply does drop). Such a little tablet I owe so many precious memories and moments to. I know that you don't have to breastfeed your babies but I am so glad that I got to and while it has been a big burden and decreased freedom, I wouldn't have done it any other way.

Part of me is scared that my supply is going to drop so much that he won't want milk anymore, but I don't think that will happen. If it does, then I will cross that bridge when it happens, have a big cry and appreciate the time that I've spent breastfeeding my baby.

So for now, thank you motilium tablets for helping my body feed my babies. Thank you for taking away the stress that feeding was at the start - wondering if my babies were getting enough milk. Thank you for increasing my supply by so much (I still remember pumping 20mls in hospital with Daniel, then after taking the tablets pumping well over 120mls). Thank you for taking away the guilt that I felt for starving my babies. Thank you for enabling my body to breastfeed 3 gorgeous bubs and for continuing that into their toddler stage.