Milk Feeds

So this morning I got Alexander up as I do each morning. Most days he has 3 breastfeeds in a day - morning wake up, afternoon feed, and often at least one feed at night. 

This morning though he didn't want a feed. This morning he did one suck and then pulled off to want to play with the train set. I offered the other side and he did one suck and then pulled off again. I let him get some trains and brought him back again. He did one suck and then pulled off again. I asked if he wanted milk and he shook his head and pointed to the trains. 

I decided to let him play and then try again. Still no interest. I decided to express if he didn't want milk because it is so out of the blue for him to reject a feed. He had fed at 2:30am but normally that doesn't stop him having his morning feed.

I guess I'll see how he goes the rest of the day and tomorrow morning. 

I don't think I'm ready to stop breastfeeding. I am sad if last nights feed was one of his last ones. If he only wants feeds at night to resettle, is that right? Do I do it? Or do I drop all feeds if he's finished his day feeds? Hopefully it's just a once off for this morning. I'll wait and see. 

If it isn't a once off and is the end of breastfeeding then it has been a lovely, beautiful journey. 

Please stop growing up bubba!!

**Update - Fortunately Alexander did have a feed after his afternoon nap so I have no idea what was going on this morning but I am really glad that he is still happy to have a breastfeed. I'm really not ready to give it up yet, even though it would give me a lot more freedom. It's just a special bond that it gives us. 

When I do feed him it is often a group affair. Here I was feeding Alexander and had Daniel and Eliza sitting there patting his head. I love the love that is in this picture.