Wednesday, 1 June 2016

Thoughts after giving birth to Alexander

 (Written while in hospital)

Wow! What an intense time that was! I am proud of myself. I gave birth to Alexander naturally, without an epidural, just using gas. I honestly didn't think that I could, but I did. I'm so grateful for the support of the midwives who talked me through it all. I am so glad that they offered suggestions of the bath and the gas.

I couldn't have done it without James. He was my rock! Early in labour he would just hold me and sway side to side with me. Then when I was doubting if I could do it without an epidural he supported me but also believed in me that I could do it naturally. I was really doubting myself because the midwives kept saying to get an epidural early because once it starts to happen then it would be a quick finish. I didn't know if I'd cope with the pain. I didn't know if I'd be ok. But James and the nurses believed that I could. I wanted to get checked to see how far along I was because if it wasn't far then I'd do the epi but Sue wouldn't let me get checked because she knew that I'd just give in but believed that I could do it. She suggested a bath, which took forever to fill. Ha. I was doing ok with swaying with James though through each contraction. Amanda suggested gas which I said no to initially but then thought I'd give it a go. My breathing was a lot better with Eliza and I was seeming to breathe well with Alexander so I changed my mind and decided to try the gas while in the bath. With each contraction I'd breathe in for 5 counts and then out for 5 then repeat. The rhythm was quite soothing. I'm so glad that they changed their technology so you can go in the bath with a drip on. Much nicer than with Eliza where I had to stay in the room.

Once in the bath I had a couple of contractions without the gas but then decided to try. It made me feel very light headed and out of sorts but it did help take the edge off. I didn't feel sickly which was good but I did feel burpy because of the gas and deep breaths. Each contraction James was there holding my hand which was such a great support and Amanda was there holding the monitor on my tummy to check Alexander was going ok. We had some great chats. Me + gas + pain = sarcasm and chatty. Amanda at one point said I was funny and James said afterwards that he has had a glimpse of what a drunk Debbie would be like. Hehe.

Once the pain intensified it did go quickly but oh my word, it was so very painful. Poor James was in a lot of pain because I dug my nails into his hand with each contraction. Amanda said she was holding back laughter because she was watching the pain on James' face each time but could see he wasn't going to say anything.

When I started to get a pain in my butt that was when it sped up. The contractions were much closer together, it was a lot harder to breath through them deeply, I just wanted him out. Amanda called for help and for Andrew to come. They needed to get me out of the bath but I couldn't stand. It took 3 people to lift me up and then to get to the bed. Andrew apparently ran up which was good because I was ready to push. He said that I could as soon as he got there so I did. With 1.5 pushes the head was out. Oh my word it was mighty uncomfortable and painful to feel. Then they wanted me to keep panting to get the arms out. That was hard because I was still having contractions so wanted to push but tried to listen and pant.

It was amazing to look down and see them lift Alexander out of me. So amazing. So crazy. I saw straight away that he was a boy and the pain was gone (until the placenta). We had our skin to skin time for a long time. It was so precious. He is just gorgeous.

I needed a few stitches unfortunately but it wasn't too bad. The pain came when they put the drip back on to help my uterus start to contract. They had to push hard on my stomach to assist it and to be sure there'd be no bleeding complications. Ouch! But it worked.

So yeah. When people ask how labour was I say painful, intense, quick but amazing. What an experience and what a precious gift he is.

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