Last day as a family of 4

Tomorrow Beanie is going to be induced which is exciting, nerve racking, overwhelming, joyful. So many mixed emotions, much like when Eliza was going to be induced. This time around it isn't because of high blood pressure, but more because of the situation - Mum and Dad are overseas so Malcolm and Julie have come to help out with the kids, I haven't gone into labour at home before so that's a bit daunting to consider it, I like to be in control of something. Fortunately Dr Booker understood my concerns and was happy to organise an induction. So tomorrow morning at 7:30 James at I will be heading to the hospital and we will become a family of 5.

39 weeks pregnant

Can't wait to meet the little one

 How am I feeling? Overwhelmed about the whole situation really. I can't wait to meet Beanie, however, I am really not keen to go through the pain again. There are a lot of 'what ifs...' that are going through my mind - more than the other 2 labours, but I also have a real peace about it all. This little one is planned by God, this little one is loved by Him and us, this little one is going to be so loved by its brother and sister.

Daniel is so excited to meet Beanie. He keeps asking when he gets to meet it, when it will come. He loves feeling Beanie move and tells Beanie through my tummy that he loves it. Eliza likes giving cuddles and kisses to my tummy, I hope that she will transfer that to Beanie when it's out. I'm pretty sure she will. 

Before we become a family of 5 we have done some little activities as a family of 4. On Saturday we headed to the Reptile Park. Daniel has been wanting to take James there for ages and here we found we had a free Saturday. It was a lovely morning hanging out, seeing the different animals, patting echidnas (so very cool!!), exploring the park, playing on the equipment. 

Hi Hugo

Patting a kangaroo

Spotting the echidna

Saying hi

Koala cuddles

Patting an echidna - Eliza had no fear

Daniel was a bit more hesitant

On Friday I had my last day of me with the 2 kids. On the way home from Chiro we went to the Cumberland State Forest and did the scenery walk. It was a nice walk and a nice way to spend some time with the kids in God's creation. We stopped and looked at the different signs to learn more about the bush. We also went into the visitor centre and did some colouring in, interacting activities and looked at the touch and feel table. It's a pretty awesome place for the kids.

Then today while Daniel was at preschool James and I took Eliza out for morning tea and then a park play. I wanted to do something special with just her like I did with Daniel before she was born. We headed to the ladybird cafe and had milkshakes, babychino and scones which was quite nice.

We then headed to the park. James dropped Eliza and I off while he went to get some filter coffee. It was nice to play with my girl on the swing, climb ropes and play on the see-saw. 

I don't know why I get sad at bedtime before going to the hospital. I have each time. I guess I know that things are going to change, that I'm not going to be as available for each of the kids, that I'm going to be quite tired and maybe not up to doing as much. I don't know. It's pretty silly but still. Tomorrow will be a new day, the start of a new adventure with another bub, the start of us as a family of 5. But for tonight I got to say goodnight to my 2 amazing kiddies!

Since Wednesday we have had Julie here, and Malcolm since Saturday night. It has been so lovely having them here to help out at home, help out with the kids, make meals, help me rest. I am sad that my parents can't be here and it has been a lot more of a reality since they have left on their holiday, but I am so very grateful that they have been able to be here to help out and be a support to James and myself but also the kids. Daniel and Eliza are so very happy to have Nana J and Boompa here too. Tomorrow Daniel will love being dropped off at preschool by Nana J and Boompa. Jens has also started work and has had to do full time training these past 2 weeks so it has been a blessing to have Julie here incase something happened with Beanie and to make appointments, etc. 

I can't wait for Beanie's family to meet it. I should best be off to bed now so I can sleep (hopefully well) and be ready for tomorrows adventures.