Beanie Progress

So I am now 34 weeks pregnant. This is pretty crazy! I still find that it feels quite surreal. I find I'm busy with the kids so forget that I have a large belly at the moment. But yeah, in around 6 weeks we will be meeting our little Beanie, finding out if it is a girl or a boy, starting the feeding journey again, the sleepless nights journey again, the joy of holding and getting to know a new little person.

33 weeks pregnant

Today this realisation is bitter-sweet. While we are excited to meet our little one, my cousin today found out that he and his wife who were 11 weeks pregnant with twins had lost both of the them. It is heart breaking to hear this news, it is heart breaking to be journeying with them while we have a healthy bubba growing inside me. It is heart breaking that a very similar situation happened with them when Daniel was 3 months old and their gorgeous baby, Lucy, was born and then passed away less than an hour later. I don't understand why some people can fall pregnant easily and some can't. I don't understand why some people experience miscarriage and others don't. I don't understand why 2 people who make amazing parents and earnestly want another baby are being put through such a tough and painful time. I don't get it! I don't know what to say to them. I guess nothing I say will help the situation. I just don't understand it. I'm left speechless and in tears when I think about it. I know that God is in control. I know that He can see the bigger picture. I know that he is loving them and caring for them during this difficult time. I know that God is going to grow them through this situation, as they did after Lucy. But I also know that the pain is going to be so hard for them, that they are going to be hurting a lot in a way that I can't understand.

As I said, it is bitter-sweet. Here is an update on how Beanie is going.

I had an appointment with my obstetrician this week and all is looking pretty good. Beanie is still growing well, measuring well. It has a strong heartbeat which is good to hear. The only problem at the moment is that Beanie is breached but Dr Booker thinks that it will turn on its own. If it hasn't turned by 37 weeks (my next appointment) then he might need to give it a push to turn it but he doesn't think it will come to that. I have had a few headaches and a migraine over the last few weeks so I was curious how my blood pressure would be but fortunately it was fine. Just the stresses of life I guess. I have booked a massage for Tuesday next week while the kids are at Mum and Dad's place so that will hopefully help settle everything. 

Beanie is quite a mover. I don't think Eliza or Daniel moved quite as much but maybe they did and I just don't remember. Part of me thinks that 1. I'm moving more with both kids so when I stop Beanie just wants to make its presence known. 2. My muscles have been stretched so much that there is nothing there anymore so any movements can be automatically felt. Anyway, here are a couple of videos of Beanie moving around. Sorry for the one with no shirt. It was just cool to be able to see the movements clearly.