What a day

Today has been a very hard day. Many tears have been had, but I have really appreciated the care of different professionals around me. 

This morning I woke up and had extreme pain in my leg when I was walking. It has been there a little bit most days, but with stretching and movement it tends to subside. Today was different. I did my stretches and it hurt. I used a heat pack and that didn't really do anything. I messaged my chiro to ask for her advice - was I to see her or try and see the masseur - or is it something I just ride out. She thinks it is my body adjusting to the extra weight on the front but is, as a result, causing me pain. I see her again on Monday but suggested that I get an appointment with the masseur to try and work on the soft tissue.

Daniel was also having a very emotional morning. Everything seemed too much for him this morning - which as a result for me was too much. Things like trying to reach a bowl in the cupboard - he could reach it but wasn't keen on moving some things, trying to pick up a ball under the table - he wasn't keen to crawl under the table and get it, riding his bike - he wanted to use a set track, pulling off stickers - one ripped and he was upset, etc. Everything was too much. I think he's becoming sensitive with changes happening, but I don't know. It was just full on when I was already emotional.

We headed to Mothers' Group and it was lovely to sit and chat. Daniel was distracted so happily ran around playing with his buddies. I had a few tears when asked how I was going (I'm fine as long as people don't ask) but it was understandable. While there Linda, the masseur, called up and said she could fit me in this afternoon - above and beyond her call of duty (as she was coming back just for me - she was only working for the morning). 

I then had my obstetrician appointment. Daniel was great - happily sat there and ate his lunch. Dr Booker asked me how I was going which of course resulted in tears. I explained to him the tears and he understood. He took my blood pressure which (of course) was high. It is around the same time that it went up with Daniel, but this time it might just be because of all the tears today. He asked me to wait for a bit and Rhonda would then take my blood pressure again. I told him that I was fine as long as noone asked me how I was. He said that he would tell Rhonda to not care for me, or ask how I am. 

Rhonda called me into her room and asked me how I was - Dr Booker hadn't spoken to her yet. The tears started again. I told him that he needed to get a midwife who wasn't kind or caring. She took my blood pressure again and it was still high (not surprising after having another cry). They decided to leave it the week and check my bp again next week as it could just be the stress of today.

We then headed home and Daniel had a nap and I had a rest on the couch. Then I dropped Daniel off with Dad and headed to get my massage. Linda is so lovely. She chatted with me about the pain and gave me a hug. She hoped that she'd be able to help and would just see how my body was going. She gave me a 1hr massage focussing on the leg with the pain. The massage was great and she was working deeper. She said that it was very tight and was working to try and loosen it. The problem is that it is quite high at the pelvic join so is difficult to work on. 

After it still hurt which wasn't great. Linda was very apologetic as she hoped it would alleviate some of the pain. Hopefully in the next 24 hours it will take effect. She suggested that next week I can go back and either get a 30min treatment just on the left leg. The other option is for her to work higher up on my leg where the main pain is. Basically I think I'll be back to visit her next week either way as I don't really want this pain for the next 3.5 weeks. But yeah, the care is amazing from her, Ursula, Dr Booker and Rhonda. Each of them actually care about their patients - we are real people, not just names on paper.

So hopefully it takes effect in the next 24 hours. Tomorrow James, Daniel and I head to Canberra for a short holiday which will hopefully be lovely. I really am hoping that my body is ok with the travel and catching up with others.