Deflated

So Daniel had his weigh in today and I am feeling a bit deflated by it. I thought that with all the hard work we had been doing, the increase in feeding and the regularity of feeding that he would have made good weight gain. The positive is that he has made weight gain. He has put on 80g, but to me that isn't a huge gain. So he is now 3.55kg. I know I should be more positive and everything but yeah, just not what I thought would happen. Tomorrow is a new day. So I'm still to feed every 3hrs in the day, 4hrs at night, for 30mins each side then 10mins the first side. Then after some day feeds I am to express to have the option of topping him up. Tonight I expressed 40mL so that is good to know that my supply is going well. I also didn't get heaps out of the first side so that tells me that he is feeding well to drain most of the first side, like it is expected. So they are the positives.

We also went to see Paul, our Dr again, to follow up his eye. He isn't 100% sure that it is conjunctivitis. The results from the swabs had both possibilities so we're to keep up the eye drops (which seem to be improving it) but also keep an eye on it and return to him if it doesn't clear up.

I also chatted with Paul about postnatal depression stuff as James and I were a bit concerned after hospital as 2 midwives commented about my anxiety and how it was a concern for them. Paul was good. He listened and heard what James and I had to say. I have had 5 pretty good days in a row which was nice. He wants to review it in a week, but he thinks it is more the situation that is making the anxiety, not internal conditions. So we are going to keep an eye on me for the next week and will then re-visit Paul on Friday to go through a checklist (for formalities) and chat about how I am feeling.

So that's where we're at at the moment.